So , if you read my last blog- and I really hope you did! You will know that me and Chris left our beloved Marshall behind to venture to Turkey for a much needed rest.
And we did rest – and although I know the heat in Turkey would have been too much for Marshall I still couldn’t shake missing him.
You see me and Chris got Marshall just as my Papillon Junior *who stayed at my mums* health was deteriorating.
He was my world. I had known him ( weirdly enough) longer than my own brother as he was ripe at the age of 20! He was boisterous and bossy right to the bitter end.
But , his health had took a turn for the worst in has last year. He was old and loosing weight rapidly. He would cry in his sleep and walk about dazed. Our vet was amazing and supported Junior and my family through it all.
Junior unfortunately had been whimpering for about 12 hours and my mum had sat with him all night – tears prickling her eyes. She called me – at this point I had moved in with Chris- and confirmed that his health was hurting him. I just knew in her voice what she meant.
I got straight out of bed and drove to my mums. I came in and Junior was walking around crying bumping into things and my heart sank. We took him to the vets and I held him tightly , kissing his head, whispering I loved him until he took his very last breath.
He had kept me company for 20 long amazing years and I will never forget the joy he brought me. I cut a piece of his hair off and placed it in my purse.
I went home that day and stayed in bed sobbing. I missed Chris’ cousin graduation daughter and regretfully didn’t look at Marshall much for that day. The days after were hard and I still cry at the very mention of his name – its still raw.
I had Marshall. He filled my heart with love so much that it helped me get over my loss. I think if I didn’t already have Marshall at that point- I wouldn’t have got another dog. I couldn’t cope with the heartache.
I always think of Junior and Marshall’s gingery coat is similar to Junior’s soft long hair. You see if you’ve never had a dog – you will never truly know the heartache when you loose them.
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